1st sick leave

Yeap. FIRST sick leave in 2 years.

I guess its time to take a break and rest. but damn, feel so bored having to eat medicine and feeling drowsy and sleeping for the whole day. In the process of getting sick, i actually enjoyed my weekend. LOL

That's because on saturday i finally took my siblings out for movies. watched Kingsman and spongebob. super cool that guy in kingman. ohoho restricted myself from eating the popcorn but end up eating a quarter of it. =X right after movies we went to have buffet at Warisan cafe. gosh. so damn full. satisfied and end it with my favorite cheese cake. ohohoho

Sunday, early morning jog with siblings. even get to join the aerobic dance in the park. awesome feeling. shall pick up dancing classes if i have the time. if and only if again. hahahz. then went visiting relatives. ending the night with a surprise outing- amusement park. bumper car, ferry wheels, spinning cup.. oh yeahh.. those childhood memories. thanks for the surprise XP

all sums up to this day. sick day. LOL  time for medicine and sleep again. chowz! take care XD

the NEW year

LOL i notice i only return to this blog whenever there is a big event like this. NEW YEAR.

well, last year had been a rocky year. lots of tough stuffs going on, difficult obstacles. so as i was thinking to boost up my energy for a new change this year, naaaaaaaahhh, so lazy.

but damn, 25 years old its like a quarter of 100 years. come to think of it, i have basically no achievements what so ever, pretty sad. i'm just exaggerating, lol. I did learn things in life, just haven't achieve something solid, something to be proud of.

So, 2015 resolutions

A draft list:-
- take IELTS
- learn Khmer
- build some furnitures ( oh my, i think i really got influence a lot by pinterest, too many things that i wish i can build one day)
- camping ( this has been on my list like.. forever)
- take one step ahead of my career
- double the salary
- freaking slim down but still enjoy eating
- have a family trip to anywhere (miss you all )
- maybe. start a side business (furnitureeeessss, wakakakaka i don't know why am i so crazy, but i really fell  in love with woods. lol)

So i guess thats pretty much what i will do this year, good luck to everyone! may your dreams be fulfill anytime in the future. DREAM BUT DONT SLEEP.  HWAITING!

bloom today

The flower bloom today.

lol? hahahahahaz my dad's epic attempt- BAKE A POPOVER CAKE . just by a 10 mins glance at the tv show of martha stewart. totally hilarious. dad just say, LETS DO IT. and i'm not sure if all of us are SO SPORTING to join my dad, or we're all just worried. HAHAHAZ!

Its really a funny thing how my dad simple words can make all of us to buze and make a move. My dad's ridiculous recipe measurement. stated ONE CUP, as in baking cup measurement. he takes a drinking cup and fill the flour in. LOL suppose to use blender, he use fork to stir. ask me not to over stir it. omggg how could i possibly over stir when the blender stirs so many times faster than me?!

Gosh. this is one of the days. one of the best days. best smiles, best memories.

the flower blooms today with a smile :)

Treasure

While i was typing the title treasure, the song by Bruno Mars actually played in my head! LOL

Lots had happen all these while. updating a blog its like old school.

oh well, don't have the software in my laptop to edit photos. so just ignore the low quality photos ya XD

 Been trying watercolouring lately. EXHAUSTING!!

  Great outing with friends. really long time no see :D

The so called "break-up" hair cut. hahahahz

whats with ppl's perspective on drastic hair cuts.

oh. and the airplane missing incident- MH370. I really hope there will be updates soon. let it be good or bad. Everyone is so anxious towards this matter. There's nothing much we can do other than hoping for a miracle to happen.

Blessed b day

I have to say. this birthday is a blessed one. 

The best things in life is so simple.

tho, 'simple' is something i can hardly understand. especially in design zzz

had a great and delicious dinner at home. receive present from everyone. really unexpected. tot it will be like an ordinary dinner and muffins as replacement of the cake. hahaha.

turn out to be very heartwarming. i can't express it out. but i hope they know i appreciate everything they have done. keke love you guys to the max!

gave me a thought its time to take this opportunity to change. change for the better. contribute more to the family. to our home.

till the time comes, good luck to everyone. in everything. at everywhere. xoxo

long. gone. found

lol.. long gone blog post eh~~~ din't update for like ages since i started working.
the latest update: I AM FAAATTT~~ but i'm still loving it. lol

had a great day meeting up with my great friend MC today, we only see each other like twice a year or so, but every meeting, every hours minutes seconds spent are totally heart warming. Its like naturally everything just falls into place, memories from the past, realising where we stand today, what we had achieve, what we have learn and grown into.

friends is not just a label, its a connection, a bond. and shit man i can't find anyone to go travel with me zzz. this year, dad took me by surprise for letting me fly(literally) lol. he asked me to go travel! despite the excitement to be free to go and explore the world, i have no where to go! totally lost of direction. settled down too long i guess.

well, it's time to rise, and chase the dream that once was mine.

next

What the heck?

If you got a dream, then do it, who is there to stop you.
so screw you man, i have my own dream to live.
lost hope in eternity.



lol.. just releasing for fun.

move on!

who

Who grant us this vulnerable life
Who has the power to retreat it
Who live to see the world
and who can only see the living live

wth

life is really too fragile.

said it. will appreciate it. live it.

fulfilled?

sadly, no.

Rest in peace Sing Ying.

and Jeffery, you funny fellow. after you left, still want me to have 2 superiors that have the same name to remember you always?! hahaz... i miss you tho... Rest in Peace too.

have you ever

I got a feeling I already had a post of this title before. so lazy to look back at my post to check.. 'Have you ever' by Brandy. Seriously i don't know who the singer is.. i just loved that song, heard it from the radio when i was young i guess. when i listen to the song i just can feel it.. lol~ one of those sentimental songs that are so attached to my heart.

have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry?
have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
have you ever...

have you ever?


i wonder.

smile to me, life

He have expectations, dreams, achievements; done or yet to be done or couldn't be done.

" you are so much different from me. you are doing good now. you are better than what i did when i was your age. you did good."

I was just shocked and stunt by what he said, a praise when i am in hoax? then i finally realize what he is going through. my grandparents couldn't be around for him to guide him through this.he goes though half of his life on his own without a parents love. yet he can be so rational in thinking, always guiding us through things that he himself have yet to discover. I know i should have love him more. I know i do, it just somehow lost track, maybe i took it for granted.

All that he wants are just simple things; greetings, joy, a helping hand, a smile.

" how old are you now? 21 years old, at such a young age , you can't smile already?"
" i'm 23, i'm older now."; then i cried. hahahahahaz....

cuz whats in my mind was i am old, so is he.

i will...smile to him, smile to myself, smile to life.

Cheers everyone!!!:)

never too late

i hope its not too late to post about my past. hahahahaz. HAD THE TOTALLY MOST SURPRISING BIRTHDAY EVER!

shocked my heart with the screaming and shouting in my home toilet. being tricked and fooled to my toilet filled with all my besties , love ya all!!! really can't describe the feeling tho.tired la that time. hahahaz.. going through toughest time of life, so frustrated. guess my family just can't stand me being so emo everyday. thus, a party was thrown, just for me. thanks for all the freaking friends who played along to give me this awesome surprise; primary, secondary, uni friends.  ooohhh all the presents too~! love you all from every beat and bits of my heart. keke

hahhaaz posting this on the 1st day of 2013! wth?! not too late la..... new day, new room, new  environment. i can't help it but to start drawing the word 'welcome'' and pasted it on my wall. I hope 2013 will be a life changing year, with you, you, you and you~ basically its everyone la.. good times or bad times, its my time of life, so gonna live it! but most probably i will be procrastinating , as usual.

oh gosh, here comes 2013!

all the best ya everyone!! hwaiting!!!

dropdead

totally fall asleep right after i reach home. landed on the bed to a plane to dreamland. gosh... my brain is so tired. been busy and stressed up at work lately. too many new projects that has deadline due in a week. crazy ppl. lol

had a surprise bday celebration after work, uncle jang korean restaurant~! Dak-galbi, gosh, niceee.... but my cloths stinks after that T.T cuz its like a big hot plate that they fried instantly on our table. vege, meat, potato? apa rice cake and all sort,fried all with korean sause and added with ramen~~~~ i have to say, i loveee the ramen XD after 70 percent of the meal eaten, it was recommended to add fried rice. but urgh. dislike. will stick to ramen next time hahahz

change, what a easy word to be said. of cuz with the will , nothing is impossible. but damn, i am just too stubborn. hahahaz... feel so sorry to fatso. forgive me for being just a brat? but who knows, the greatest motivation to change is to dump or to be dump~ hahahahz but i never want that to be on the list,never.

change, that shall be it.

tomorrow la! hahahaz~~~

awake?

lol.. still awake at this wee hours. its been quite often i stayed up late. many things just happen at the same timeline, kindna hard to cope. but rawrrr~~~ glad things are getting better.

read a post at fb today, saying that Sagittarius will have terrible luck next year, everything is a disaster. aiks!!! i don't know.. it kindna dragged me down, maybe i should stop my plans? new plans here and there... zzz seriously i don't know which one to listen to. hahahaz~~

fatso gave me a youtube link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiyFbCByAWQ
commencement address by steve jobs. really inspiring, the conclusion i made, go through the hardship, take bold choices, rawr rawr rawr, one day things will just work out the way it is. lol.. connecting dots... dot dot dot . fingers crossed*

sot adi la at this hour. i think i don't plan to sleep and just go to work and dread myself out like nobody's business. oh... yea... today i think its bad luck day or something. everyone just want to find fault with me. maybe i'm just too tired. rawrrrrr... what am i saying....

what a post...

What a step! XD

Yeap, considering this as a big step in life. more like a stage of life. the day has come, i've graduated!! XD Could say this is really a great, happy, exciting, sienz, tired, painful day LOL

Graduating in kampar new hall is totally great, damn happy my whole family came with my grandparents, just regret din't snap more photos with them. its a total chaos when we came out from the hall, packed with ppl, have to adjust between friends and family, din't really get to snap photos with a lot of friend T^T huhuhu...

oh!!i almost drop my convo hat when i'm on the stage, yeap.. almost. luckily it din't!! the speech was quite boring, i wanted to sleep, but i was afraid to be caught on tape sleeping. hahaha~ awesomely gorgeous flower i got from my family, fatso, penny and gang friend. i get gifts from friends too! <3 a="a" all="all" and="and" are="are" artwork="artwork" awesome="awesome" bird="bird" book="book" card="card" convo.="convo." couldn="couldn" customize="customize" cute="cute" damn="damn" expect="expect" flower="flower" for="for" friends="friends" from="from" gaga="gaga" goddess="goddess" greatest="greatest" hahahaz="hahahaz" handmade="handmade" him="him" it="it" js="js" kamsahamida="kamsahamida" lady="lady" letter="letter" lulu="lulu" make="make" man.="man." mei="mei" my="my" p="p" really="really" rest="rest" s="s" san="san" senior="senior" snoopy.="snoopy." soft="soft" t="t" thank="thank" thanks="thanks" the="the" to="to" totally="totally" touching="touching" toy="toy" was="was" who="who" wishes="wishes" woonhoo="woonhoo" xddd="xddd">
Special thanks to sharon who dropped by. arggh~~ timing la.. damn rush, really so sorry couldn't make it to your convo. but really thanks for coming!!  love ya always! and that penny.. aiyorr.... we both no jodoh? how come we exchanged flowers without even meeting each other!? luckily we manage to catch up before you enter the hall...HAPPY GRADUATE oh!! thanks fatso for everyeverything <3 br="br">

i think i still haven't get enough sleep.. i want to go and sleep somemore.. more  more more... zzz
nah! just joking!!

This graduation shall be a be a big recognition and a boost for us all to be advance in the future.. HWAITING EVERYONE!

hiu i'm back!

i was reminded that i have a blog. hahaha.. its been really a long time since i've updates, i guess the job i'm having now is really dreading me out. the pay is ok, job scope is too much, aldo i did learn more things about purchase and delivery ordes. but argh~ after an outing with friends and talks of the jobs we're having now- i start to doubt my direction.

i want to be a web designer. i don't know how i come into that conclusion but its just like how i choose graphic design. i guess i don't dare to quit my job now and pursue cuz is know i have nothing. nothing to impress.

so till i gather enough time to improve my skills and build my my confidence, maybe one day i shall release that boom. (nah~ fireworks would be better XD)

happy day i suppose (:

today is a happy day, a lucky day, a friendly day, a lovely day <3

Accompanied while doing assignment last night, achieved the artwork i like, waking up having breakfast with parents, having them to accompany me to interview, talked to 2 really friendly interviewer, enjoyed choosing spectacles for dad, eating lunch at the awesome malay oasis food court, receiving a job offer, been asked for reconsideration from another company, out of no where get to go out with fatso, caught in the rain, meeting elders, discussion on what's best, and now, hoping for the best for you and me and everything around.

cheers everyone. love ya all!

Rebel

your daughter is an introvert,
don't like to social,
do everything also no confidence,
what also can't do well,
don't have the guts,
always look down at herself,

you have this kind of thoughts about me,
then shouldn't you have also known that

your daughter loves freedom,
gets very crazy socialize among friends,
has her own piece of mind,
creative ideas flowing in her head,
look at the mirror and started to doubt,

what job YOU prefer me to work,
and not, what job i would choose to love.

In the end, freedom-negative; forcing to grow up-overlimit

p/s: what i hate the most is when i started to put effort,you proclaim that i didn't do anything at all.
you should have known that your daughter is born to be a rebellion.

if one day

I don't know why i cry so hard for someone i have not become.
ppl teaching me how to be realistic
knowing about workspace politics
to step forward sometimes you have no choice but to step on others
i don't understand anything at all
am i still a kiddo?
maybe its time
to be someone i am not.

but still, the same phrase that comes into my head from time to time
如果说...越踏出世界一脚越不能保留住天真微笑,那从今以後我一个人过就很好
if one day I have to step into a world but i can't keep a sincere smile, then from that day onwards, i shall live my life alone.

time shrinks?

arrghh... not enough time? no. i have plenty of time.but i just don't make time. crap.
these days time seems to pass real quick. nothing much can be done in a day. but thank god i still can list out 1 thing useful i do each day, if not my life is a waste! arrgghh~~ but really- nothing much done.

went for facial this morning. freaking 3 and a half hour of facial, my face looks damn hideous and i bump into 2 of my secondary school mates on the way back home. a leng lui junior and cool senior. dead. so dead. i look so hideous with my fringe tied up too. arrrghhh i know i'm ugly and nobody wants to love me~ lalalala~~ ohyeeaahh.. blackjack XD

Skies we don't belong to