Rebel

your daughter is an introvert,
don't like to social,
do everything also no confidence,
what also can't do well,
don't have the guts,
always look down at herself,

you have this kind of thoughts about me,
then shouldn't you have also known that

your daughter loves freedom,
gets very crazy socialize among friends,
has her own piece of mind,
creative ideas flowing in her head,
look at the mirror and started to doubt,

what job YOU prefer me to work,
and not, what job i would choose to love.

In the end, freedom-negative; forcing to grow up-overlimit

p/s: what i hate the most is when i started to put effort,you proclaim that i didn't do anything at all.
you should have known that your daughter is born to be a rebellion.

if one day

I don't know why i cry so hard for someone i have not become.
ppl teaching me how to be realistic
knowing about workspace politics
to step forward sometimes you have no choice but to step on others
i don't understand anything at all
am i still a kiddo?
maybe its time
to be someone i am not.

but still, the same phrase that comes into my head from time to time
如果说...越踏出世界一脚越不能保留住天真微笑,那从今以後我一个人过就很好
if one day I have to step into a world but i can't keep a sincere smile, then from that day onwards, i shall live my life alone.

time shrinks?

arrghh... not enough time? no. i have plenty of time.but i just don't make time. crap.
these days time seems to pass real quick. nothing much can be done in a day. but thank god i still can list out 1 thing useful i do each day, if not my life is a waste! arrgghh~~ but really- nothing much done.

went for facial this morning. freaking 3 and a half hour of facial, my face looks damn hideous and i bump into 2 of my secondary school mates on the way back home. a leng lui junior and cool senior. dead. so dead. i look so hideous with my fringe tied up too. arrrghhh i know i'm ugly and nobody wants to love me~ lalalala~~ ohyeeaahh.. blackjack XD

Skies we don't belong to

did i

what i hope for,
what i wish for,
what i envy for, 
what i gave for,

happiness, did i asked too much? or did i asked too little?

i guess i hoped too much,
i guess i wished upon the wrong star,
i guess i envy others love,
i guess i gave the wrong thing,


did i...?

gave in

I'm not sure whether its been a long time since i have sat for an exam or what. today's exam on artlaw and cyberlaw really gives be great tremble. Can't stop trembling during the exam, mind gone blank, the brain doesn't link to my hand. Rewrite the whole section a, end up not enough time to complete section b. dead meat or what? the worst will be what i've read did not come out, instead that pass year question that i abandoned, both came out in this freaking essay part. shit dao~ haihz. i give up.

naaah. i gave up until i've reach HOME only. my real home, the comfy of my home, the smell, the sunlight, the air, omg, i missed it so much. haihz, seldom go back there anymore, i guess there is not much chances in the future to do so. maybe i should take the effort to back more often. hmm.. just for the fresh air but not to pack my huge junk pile of stuffs XD

anyways, good things and bad things always balance i suppose? aldo i feel so bad about my exam, i get to enjoy a good nap at home, found my lost voucher, drank starbucks brought by dad, and gonna have cake later for xin's bday! yay~~~ XD sweet things really melt my heart but never melt my fats LOL cake cake cake, been looking forward to it since yesterday!!! rawr~ bring it to meeee~~

overwhelming insecurity

some things in life are so simply. a smile. a little phrase. a picture.
life is so complicated. and to that, simplicity itself could bring great things.
i don't need jewelry. i don't need high end places. i don't need fame.

all the want is-simplicity.

a paper.
a pen.
a life.

love is simple. A simple love.

haihz. damn emo today laaaaaaaaa.. ki siao adi