Hello 2009!

hu! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Yesterday night came back home around 3am? lolz.. too tired to even brush mt teeth...sleeeeeep ZZzzzz noday 12pm only wake up..lolz...7 hours? more than enough ler...i wasted my time! anyway, here is about what happened last night- hours before new year comes~

Sharon went for Kar Kee's class party,Michelle went back hometown to celebrate, Florence go back Seremban to celebrate her sisters wedding? no lar..i think celebrate new year only, so end up me and Angeline hang out for that night. We went MyFc for dinner..cycle out under the rain. Thanks Ange for the rain cot XD Dinner at MyFc is really full~ full until we da pao for blacky to eat..hahaz... we head to Angeline'e house to see movie-American Pie, Beta house. LOLZ this is really really my 1st time see so many XXXXXXXXXXXX in a movie =_= grown up stuff...haih...experience i guess..18 years old adi..so..i guess its ok? hahaz.. next! we see the movie until 2 minutes before 12am. so we went out cycle cycle..many messages come in.. wah~~~ many count downs also~ hehe^^ we went cycle around, meet jannu and adnita, kar yee, and lots of unknown ppl who wishes us when we pass them by. its fun! the most fun part was we went to Evonne's room to scream HAPPY NEW YEAR! but we only yell once..actually i wanna yell somemore, but don't know how to say.. hahaz XD After that we see Ange's husband video clips and MV and live shows.. nice orh! then then got the skeleton? the bone thingy...really very real lor! pui fuk~ after that when Kar Yee come back we went for MM and i ordered ABC. Ange help me finish the beans, this time they really gave lots of Beans, don't know why =_= anyway, Kar Yee and Ange send me back home and ange yell HNY and i also yell HNY. you know what, got other ppl yell HNY after that too..hahaz...HNY to us! XP fun fun fun ...but exhausted ,really...

okok...i haven write what i had done in year 2008 and what will be done in year 2009..here goes>>

Done in Year 2008

(not proud of)

1. Cry almost everyday bcuz miss my family too much
2. Still can't get over the reality
3. Don't know how to smile as i usually did
4. Play a fool during sem 1
5. Mess up my whole room and never clean it up
6. Never told my mom i go yamcha late at night
7. Argue with my friend for small reason
8. Din't put much effort in sem 2 assignment.
9. Still don't dare to see horror movie =_=
10. Spent lots of money! like water!

(proud of)

1. Finally know how to cry lesser(i think)
2. Start thinking ahead that i must study hard for my future
3. Got guts to go see sunrise with flower? XD
4. Collected 50sen coins about RM60
5. Score 2.9 cgpa? lol..thats not good
6. Cooked my fav food~
7. Talked back with tomato again
8. Say many times ILOVEYOU to my parents(IMs only)
   
9. Starting to Click with the friends here
10. I'm Loved XDDDDDD

Will be done in Year 2009

• er..Study hard? Score 3.0 above? i aiming 3.5, but but..haih..
• Help out my mom in everything(when i go back KL)
• Keep our family close and safe always
• Going prom night?
• Meet up with Tomato?
• Go Cambodia to see my dad
• Stay friends forever for the Buddy gang
• Go Cameron with Zhu Gou Bu Ru gang
• Work part time to take my family to Sarawak? possible mar? in few years time gua =_=
• Take my parents for candle light dinner on their anniversary
• Run away from home?! XD
• Hope that Graphic Design not so tough =X

aiyor..can't think much of what to do..when time comes then only will know what should be done. So, i think thats all? Thanks everything that everyone gave me! nomatter sweet, sour, spicy, salty, bitter...all these will be my kept in my memory forever! Thanks! ohyar...Thanks Ange for accompany me celebrate HNY. but i totally forgotten i have a date with my family on skype..gosh...anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR ! May this year be smooth and sound and alll your wishes come true. All the best in everything! chowz!

6 days ''HOLS''

Someone complain and ask me to update my blog =_=

here goes, before Christmas i was like rushing my assignment like HELL!!! Web page design, the only subject that i was so excited to learn even before the Semester starts. But now, I don't know. Tired lar~~~~ XP The web page takes about a week to finish? i moved my desktop to Florence house because i know i will do the assignment till late at night which apparently will make lots of noise that will cause Sharon can't have a good sleep. so...no choice, MOVE OUT for a week only lar.. Ribuan thankyou Florence for letting me use her living room and the space beside her bed XD On the day to submit the Web Page was super darn tired. only had an hour nap at 8.30am. and that was when John wanted to go out buy food so i tot--why not have a nap 1st? XD Continue-ing the web page report and presentations slides was easy but yet tough? Skipping whole day class just for this. Worth it? i don't know..what i know is, I DON'T WANNA GET BAR! But after finishing the whole web page assignment, head home, pack, and KL! HERE I COME~

but going back KL wasn't really that nice for Christmas. Cuz both my sisters are going Singapore to celebrate Christmas with my cousin there. They only sponsor both of my younger sisters =_= but yet, we get to celebrate Christmas Eve together. BBQ!! i brought Christmas hat for them and we snap some photos. But they din't wear it for long cuz they say it was very stuffy and hot =_= we opened our presents on Christamas Eve because the next thing in the morning my sisters will be heading to Singapore already. So, Fun Fun Fun whole night loooong~

On Christmas Day, i think i woke up at 12 in the afternoon. Gosh, not to mention wishes to my friend. tell ya what! my phone kena virus! so terrible, i have to format my phone T.T Start wishing my friends only after noon, how pathetic is that! Nvm..but after that...i don't really remember much...eat my favourite foods, Shopping with mom , Watching Series, Iron the cloths? the best part is.................I brought a TORTOISE! its been my dream to buy one..but sadly, i CURI CURI buy one...=_= A bad kid huh? what to do?! LIFE IS TOUGH! Its super cute! my sis brought it for me, but she don't let me bring it to Kampar. because she say i will be way to busy to take care of it. Haihz....maybe after CNY lar..hahazXD

Ohyar...i missed 1 part...I went to Jusco? cuz the zhu gou bu ru gang always asked me to go out but i always can't make it. since that day my sis got things to do in skul and my mom got work to do, so..why not? meet up with shufen and mang ching in Jusco KFC. eat, Chit Chat...they say jaja will come later.. bobo din't come..don't know whether she is still angry of me =_= suddenly shu fen have a call so she went out. so me and mang ching chat chat chat...suddenly...a cake =_= i was like.. what de? Christmas Cake? nope..its Birthday cake..hahaz.. my birthday over so long adi lu...now still can celebrateXD but i'm really glad, this will be the 1st time i celebrate bday with then? cuz every year when they say wanna celebrate for me i'll make excuse that i'm not in KL, busy, tuition, in purpose lar...cuz i don't want them to waste money on me.. plus my bday all along falls on school holidays, it will be a fuss for them to celebrate for me. but yet, this year, THANKS ZHU GOU BU RU GANG! to thank them i take them to drink pao bing..chat chat chat. after i pay at the casher, they pay me back pula =_= haih...so i take the money, and went to buy 5 key chains and each of us have one..all with different pose. CUTE!

The day before i left Kampar, my sisters came back,we talked a lot, many many lar...we brought a dress for mom, make her to wear and snap photo at the Christmas tree..everything was fun..but its time to go back to studies...Kampar =_______________= really have to study hard this time! i don't wanna dissapoint my dad! and mom of cuz =X Gambateh lar to everyone~! Especially Yanny, take care lar you....new year coming! new life! 1 more year to go! GAMBATEH!!!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Pathetic

Continue my last blog.. my birthday! this is how it goes.. my friend, Florence wrote her PM happy birthday Karyn.. And after that everyone in my class also wrote that as their PM. but sadly, i din't see it because i din't online my inactive_account00@msn.com (where i add all my classmates) Aldo so, they still wish me in school! very happy! Daniel and John Gan even wish me from afar..yelling! cuz that time is after class..i'm heading to block A and they yell from block B.. i can tell that, at the end only they remember that day was my birthday =_= but i wasn't happy enough. because someone i tot was the closest to me in Kampar, never wish me. because for the pass 2 days her mood wasn't that good because she have some problems with her bf. everytime when this happens, we won't talk. SAD! yea...i keep consoling myself that its ok that she din't wish me. no big deal. but still..i frown everytime i think of it. pathetic i should say. while taking the bus home, i can't stop thinking what will happen if i go back home? if i see sharon, is she going to wish me? sob the whole journey home. reach home, she was playing laptop. my eyes are still red so i just grab my towel and went to bath. After bathing, i just don't know...she came and talk to me.. but i cried even worst. so i went back into the toilet and change and ask whether she wanna go pasar malam with me or not? cuz...eventhought she did not wish me, all i want is to go out hang gai with her.. at least walk in pasar malam and buy some snacks to eat. but then she...i don't know. i tot that she is going to come along. when i off the light and leaving she doesn't seems following me. Then she tell me that she will meet me there. she will go with her bf and the gang. I was speechless so i just walk to Florance house to return back her umbrella and sobing really really terrible! maybe there is too many things inside of me that i wanna release all at that time.. its really painful...knowing that i'm not visible. after that we went for dinner, pasar malam..i tot coming home i will try talking to sharon. but....i got assignment to do, so i have to go.. after discussion, we head to the lake.. maybe i will feel better there..because...i really don't know what to say when i see sharon. things isn't going very well lately. Flo said wanna go yamcha when we are at the lake, so we cycle back to westlake lor.. when i pass by kar yee's house, i yell her name but no one answered. and then when i turn back to the front and continue cycling, a whole bunch of ppl yelling my name! singing birthday song. its Sharon and the gang. really surprised. din't thought that she will actually organised this for me.. and i was sad for nothing thinking that she don't even remember my birthday. in order to make the gang to celebrate with me, she have to help them out with their assignments.

telling the truth.. i haven even thank sharon. i mean..i did thank her.. but... i don't know...... we haven been talking for a week! last wednesday was my birthday. until now we haven talk about it yet. how sad is that? even meeting each otehr in school. we barely walk to each other and chat anymore. maybe its because we are busying on our own individual things? the gap between us really really widen. i don't know what to say. its been like this all along. i can't help her when she has a problem. because according to her, i'm always blurr..can't give advise. so she never tell me her problems. i really hope that things will go well.. i don't want to end up we beccoming strangers.. aldo thats what it seems now...i facing my pc.. she facing her laptop.. no talking...this is how it is.. PATHETIC

Today is My 18th BIRTHDAY!! Lots of ppl wish me in school.. very happy.. hahaz.. Burfday gurl leh! hahaz.. Syok Sendiri o.O hahahaz... kay lar.. things are very good today you might think. but nah..its not really that nice.. cuz i slept at almost 3am and woke up at 7am. really not enoough sleep. so in class wanna zzZZZ adi..-to be continue- nak tidur d..chwz!

a long long day~~~

9december2008

I actually thought that we are going to practice Caroling for Christmas eve. manatau we practice to present on that day! but! its super super fun! Everyone doens't know that we're going to visit house by house to sing(i think) very very funny.. hahaz.. We started practising about 8pm.. Base keys at the left and Travel keys on the right? i'm travel key..the...high pitch thingy. Total we have 10 songs. we practise all of them and i have to hold the booklet of lyrics for Mr. Kuek who is playing the guitar(12 string guitar, cool) My hands doesn't get tired.hahaz. din't excercise enough i guess? Half way through we have a break and i can feel that my throat starts to hurt! omg! hahaz... we finally finished practising and now put our practise to actions! we leave the house at 9.30pm and our 1st destination is Mr.Kuek's house! We sing 4 songs in total..really really warmth feeling in there..cossy~ hahaz..(john say he say shadows coming into the house while we're singing. He say maybe its Jesus) We sang.....Then we drink..for those who can drink cold, they will get ribena and ice-cream on top. And for those you can't drink cold (me) will have 100 plus instead.. XD and we had biscuit wraped with color papers too! After that is photo shooting! we snap photo with Mr.Kuek's Christmas tree! ohyar..forget to mention something, we wear Santa Hat! hahaz.. nicenicenicenice! hehe^^

Next destination is restaurant near by there? i din't really look at the name of the restaurant(paiseh~)We sang 4 songs too if i'm not mistaken. the lao ban liang (boss wife) sick adi..having sorethroat..so we sang~ they happyily clap hands together~ and we make a prayer hoping that boss wife can recover soon.. not to mention that.......actually Mr.Kuek is having flu too. Pity him T.T Next destination will be Ms. Julia's house! waliao a! her house super super nice~ cossy~ nice decorations~ garden prefect!We get to know that Ms. Julia's parents are also lecturers-english language 1 leh! We sang 4 songs too..we all sang together~ hahaz..very fun! after singing then we eat! makan tit-pits! every stop sure got thing to drink and makan de~~yumyum~ While eating we chit chat..making jokes and all sort of things lar.. Take a photo before we leave to our next destination..er....Eric's friend's house? which was also the last stop.. there are foour ppl in there.. 2 of them are staff in Utar. We sang 4 songs too. this time we cherish the moment together because it was the last house we'll be visiting. So we sang with all our hearts together. After that, fruits and drinks and chocolate! yumyum~After we ate then we took photo again. This time i'm behind. i reaceive a msg. A birthday wish from tomato~ hahaz..i was like...happy? hehe^^ replying my msg...then my sister called! they sang me birthday song in 3 language- eng, malay and mandarin.. i really cry until don't know what to say.. cuz really touched. Before this i went back KL and already celebrated my birthday earlier. so i thought that they won't wish me again on my exact birthday. But they did! and i was like..huhuhuhuhuhu~~~!!! hahaz...After my conversation with them, sudddenly Calvin call me back into the house because there is another song to sing requested don't know by who lar..so i sweep of my tears and walk in lor.(cuz i have to hold the paper for Mr.Kuek) ok..1 2 3! We wish you a HAPPY B IRTHDAY! We wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! We wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and.....a MERRY CHRISTMAS! X2

i was like..har?! hahahaz...really really hmm...touched also? cuzwhole bunch of people wishing me Happy Birthday in a Christmas tune. After the singing, everyone of them shake hands with me. Starting with Mr.Kuek, then don't know who who...almost everyone shake with me lor..really touched! let me count har..got how many ppl..15? i think lar...plus Mr.Kuek i think 16 adi ba...hahaz...overall! THANKS LOR!!!! i really happy XDDDDDD

After that we dismissed and i ask Mr.Kuek to send me to Maha Maju. Cuz my friends was waiting for me since 10 plus? gosh..really felt sory to them..they haven't ate their dinner and was planning to wait for me together yamcha eat de(but they cannot tahan adi so they eat 1st, hahaz)Michelle and john join me too..so...there are Florance, Ange, John, Michelle, Penny, Shu Fen and Kar yee! Kar yee and Jamie kongsi buy me a present. its a bottle with wishes inside, they write wishes on the star paper and fold it and put it in to the bottle. Thanks ya! after that is cake time! Calvin they all were also in the same mamak. so when why friends start singing happy birthday song, they too sing~ XD like whole mamak is mine! hahazXD(sot adi) I made 3 wishes i blow the candles lor. then they ask me to use my mouth to take the candles out. but they din't push me against the cake lor...cuz the cake so nice,they said. =_= Snap photos and we start eating the cake. I gave some cake to Calvin they all also, as a word of thank you! after that we snap some photos and we went 7-eleven to lepak for a while and i brought sour mentos? for my classmates to eat tomorrow, as belanja makan bcuz its my bday lar..my friends actually went into 7-e to buy present for me. but of cuz i don't want lar..they buy cake already expensive lor..a wish from a friend is more than enoughXD after that, kar yee cycle me home, florance cycle ange, and john cycle michelle. ohyar! penny went home after the cake. cuz its was pretty late that time(class is at 8am the next day) when we reach westlake, we send each other back home, and i lazy to type adi,,type so long very tired liao. when reach home i gave a piece of cake to sharon and online. bath, tye blog, sharon off light want sleep adi..so i guess i better finish up and go to bed too.. So! Thankyou everyone! aldo my parents haven't wish me yet, but i wanna say, THANKS MOM AND DAD! BECAUSE OF BOTH YOU GUYS, ONLY I CAN BE STANDING HERE! thanks! love you guys! love everyone! I"M 18YEARS OLD ADI! ARGH!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF, AND TO MY BEST FRIEND WHO HAVE THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MINE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! CHOWZ! zzzZZZZZ

Confessions

Well well, i still remember i have a blog this time. hahaz XD i just came home from ipoh today. My family went to my grandparents house to visit them. Actually i don't plan to go ipoh this weekend because i havent finish my assignments yet. But yet, i still went because i miss my family too much! but things doesn't go well between me and my mom. Don't know why, i just can't find back the bond between us anymore. Will get pissed off even by a lil disagreement she made against me. haih! I wish we will get better next time we meet, hopefully. but i still prefer my dad more..^^

Okay. something i found out lately..WHY THE HECK IS EVERYONE CONFESSING??!! lolz..is it mating season? har har??! gosh.. BGR(boy and girl relationship) really is everywhere now. i mean, its always here. but now it started to bloom! Sharon have bf, Calvin have a crush, Yanny confessing, Fly break up with bf, even Tomato have bf! many many lovey dovey things.. OMG! but hey, one thing i can tell is.. i don't quite like flower anymore. hahazXD maybe because i know where is my exact position. So i plan to work out till i go home for christmas! You know why? Cuz i bet with my sis to see who is lighter! hahahahhaz... but i don't think it will work? cuz i LIKE TO EAT!! say wanna work out, now eating nasi itik pula..hahaz!

I guess now i wanna concentrate and get better grades this time(also because my sis bet with me, say i sure get lesser than 2.9 this time)XD but now i think i wanna lace on the bed and sleep 1st. cuz i haven do my marketing SWOT. management PLOC, sociology PERSPECTIVE, web page DESIGN..gosh..betetr sleep 1st..hahahz...chowz!

p/s: To those lovey dovey.. Gambateh! Fight for your love! Hidup Bahagia tau tak?!

mix mix

again..i forgotten i have a blog..aiks...i try to make it a habit to write down everything special that happens but turn out everytime either i'm too excited or too pathetic , so i forgotten to blog it. hahaz. life has been quite well lately. I used to feel that i don't have any friends here at Kampar (every since things doesn't go well between the 1597 and 1497 gang) but this semester, this kindna work out? i try to be more open(like how i used to be during secondary) and i do make some close connections with my coursemate. Its a good thing i guess? but the thing that i worry the most is...tomato? well, i really don't know how to say this and i guess i should just leave it the way it is. who am i to control what is going to happen? i read Calvins's blog. and found out that he is being emo for some reason. it kindna reflect the me during the 1st semester, miss my family too much, no one cares a bout me, stress about exams.. haih~ actually i suppose to bring Sharon to church last sunday. but end up we going to my granparents house at Ipoh. Sorry calvin! i promise, next week. (or maybe the week after) haih~ money is a problem now. spending money on food is really really costly. i thought of buying some vitamins so that i can stay healthy during exams, more energetic? haih~ but i used those money to MAKAN! eat eat eat~ haih~ crazy adi..haih~ nowadays everyone also not a good mood. wanna help out, but don't know how. i guess when things comes you just have to face it as it is. Everyone, good luck! always remember, your love ones will always be there supporting you.

Thanks Tomato for everything~

When I'm arranging my laundry and putting it into my cupboard, i realise something laying over there that i haven open or look through it ever since i come to Kampar. It was always there. I can't leave it behind at Kl, but i can't bear the pain to open it. But yet, today, i open it up and take a look at it.

Its the memory of Carrot and Tomato.

Tomato, something that i wanted to say to you personally, but i don't want the pass to ruin your present. Therefore, here goes. (Althought its impossible you're reading this..I'm just whispering,anyway)

I bring all the material stuff that i kept all along.Movie tickets, tissue pack, presents you gave me, letters..many many.. those memories. but i did not cry after looking at them. Instead i feel sorry. Why did i get mad for nothing and scolded that you never care of me. Where the fact is you care for me the most. I blame you for not giving me things to keep as memory, but you did. I guess this is what they say, you only think of what you have gave people, but you never think of what people gave you. My fault, sorry.

I'm very sorry because of my craziness towards perfectness in our friendship has cause so much miserable and unnecessary pains. I plan to make a card for you for your birthday. Birthday, the day where both of us are born for each other? I always keep this in my thought. Don't wanna doubt it anymore. Although we might not be the same as the old times, but.. i still believe-We're one.

Sunday Service

Today is my 1st time going for sunday service at church. Really first time! Godness! i woke up at 7.30am get ready and the van came and we head to wesley church. Everything went smoothly until i realise something when i reach the church..i'm wearing slipper! What de..actually i was thinking of wearing my sport shoe. but then i thought no need to be so formal. manatau, everyone wear normal shoe and no slippers allow?! gosh gosh...i thought it was like going for care groups where we wear normal cloths. aiks. so i requested to change shoe with John. Starting he don't wanna lend me his shoe. hahaz. but i keep on asking, so i guess he kindna pity me? so he change shoe with me lor(with socks too) XD praise and workship is super nice! i really like it when they sing, Felt peaceful. at almost 11am we have breakfast. The food really nice leh! hehe^^ then after breakfast we went back into the hall. Calvin played the drum and guitar. I get it videotaped! Calvin sing the song ''How great is our god'', really nice er! too bad he not very familiar with the song i like- ''Hossana''. After that there is Caroaling practise. Waliao! nice leh the way they sing. Guys and Girls have diffrent pitch. But the girl's pitch super high =_= luckily i'm not joining the caroaling. If not sure ruin the whole thing. I can't sing high pitches, i think. hahaz. took some videos too. Too bad my camera not enough memory. If not i'll sure videotape the whole practise. XD Overall, sunday service was nice! Looking forward to go again next week! But this time, together with Sharon! i hope she don't break the promise again. I don't wanna cry again. haih~ to think about it, i wonder why did i cry just because she is not coming(everytime she promised to come) haih~ nway, just pray that she keep what she said. To end this blog, All the best to those having Exams! Especially exams this week, 3 exams continuosly 3 days. Cool? hahaz. it sure is. GAMBATEH lar!

Remember to blog !

gosh...i almost forgotten i have a blog! hahahz...since i go back Kl last weekend, i forgotten how to use internet. maybe its because the usage of internet isn't as important as the time spent with family. XDTomorrow will be my 1st mid term exam -Managament Studies. gosh i did not even start a bit until now! {{and the worst is..i left my Lecture notes full with conteng conteng of notes in KL!! the two most important notes! godness...haih~~ maybe i'll try borrowing from friend tomorrow.while i can only able to read the slides from the computer( download slides from wble).}} update update!! my found my lecture notes! i knew it would be somewhere..cuz i remember reading it after i come back from KL! hooray! lolz..have to study now..=_=

i've done some calculations lately..i get gpa 2.9..so how much should i get to get a scholarship? min3.8!! and how much should i get for this sem to achieve that?so this is what i calculated====

(2.9+?)/2=3.8
2.9+?=3.8*2
2.9+?=7.6
?=7.6-2.9
?=gpa
?=4.7!!!!

OMG!! the max for gpa is only 4.0! how could i possibly achieve 4.7?!
and thats the reason..i have decided to..STUDY HARD!!!
but i alraedy calculated..cuz of my last sem gpa..i can't get scholarship even if i score sem 2 and 3 both 4.0 SOB SOB~!

ok..next topic!!!
i wonder whether i get 2.9 is really...incredible? lolz..cuz someone is really pissing me off..she kkep on repeat and repeat this.. don't care whether its to me or to her friends or to my friends. Over and Over again she is repeating! she said that i'm always sleeping..every single time sleeping only...over slept skip class...but still can score 2.9...hey~ why? because i'm stupid doesn't mean i'm not qualify to achieve that kind of result. But true, i know i always sleep. Don't even pay attention in class. but at least i put all my afford in my assignments. and she don't. now thats the reason. haih~ i really really....haih~~~ no ear hear adi..hahahzXD don't care

next topic!
this is good news i assume? carrot and tomato are kindna like friends again? lolz..it doesn't mean that we are enemy before, but just we haven been talking for months! but lately thanks to her case' josh' we get to chat in msn and giving advises to each other. you know what? i'm happy =) really...cuz i can still be a part of her. she's kindna down lately cuz of that 'josh' thingy. and i always advise her to be happy..live a happy life.. editing photos for her.. run to her when my friend send me ghost photos..asked help about assignments.. its great that we start talking again. but one thing that i hope i never reveal to her. Its the sadness of my part of the story. Not living well without her, running away from reality, can't blend well in new envirionment, or maybe even dislike by my own classmate because of my not smiling face? i'm going to lie to her again. that i, too live a happy life..

The End **time to continue my revision.if nt sure die tomorrow. 3 more chaps to go!!**

Oscar Prom Night~

lazy to go cook my breakfast XP instead i think i should write what i wanted to write yesterday. yesterday i was too lazy to wrote my blog.. hahaz! its like this...Oscar Prom Night!!! Argh!!! its on 13th of feb 2009! Tickets are RM15. i want to go!! i've been waiting since the 1st week i enter UTAR~ and i actually thought that i will get to go that time. hahaz. to think back about it, its kindna makes me chuckle.. keke^^ i still remember the night where i when out yam cha with my classmates. then Penny invited her childhood friend to eat with us. after that she wanted to go buy bread at 7 eleven so me and her friend accompany her. plus at that time her friend have to go to westlake(the place i stay) to do assignment. her friend don't stay at westlake so doesn't know the way to go there. so i have to be tour guide to take her friend to westlake and search for the correct house. Penny said its a good thing too cuz at least got ppl to accompany me back home. hehe^^ so went to buy bread.. then me and her friend cycle to westlake and Penny went home(not at westlake, at new town)

While cycling we chat a lil about assignments. What tutor and hows the marking scheme.. at the same time i have to look for the house. cuz i'm not quite familiar too >< but we manage to find the house. and then penny's friend asked my name again. i said my name about 4 times! spelling too=_= my name was tried to be type into his phone. i guess i din't really notice that actually my phone number is what he want? So i said i gtg home adi. he wanted to cycle me home. but i insist i cycle back my own. don't want later he sesat in westlake pula. hahaz.. chowz to him! but i never forget leh..Since i was so crazy about Utar Ball, i told myself, i must take that guy as my partner to Utar Ball!! Waaahhhh~~~ dreaming~~ that was really what i thought lor..cuz that time quite daring. i thought if i get on hold of when is the Utar ball, i'll straight away find him and ask him to be my partner that night. Although i know we only meet once.. hahaz! Who is he?? XP but then..haih~~ don't know leh? now really got Oscar Prom Night....i don't know whether wanna go ask him or not leh...cuz that time still don't know him then not pai seh to ask. now since we have become friends, its hard to ask..XP if he ask me i sure go crazy lor!!!!!! hahahahahz...dreaming...will continue dreaming~~~

haihz! haihz! haihz!

haih~ i really really don't know what am i feeling right now. i wanted to concentrate on my studies and get good grades. but i sleep for 12 hours a day!! am i nuts?! totally! haih~~ everytime if i study at school until the evening..the 1st thing i do when reach home is sleep. sleep nvm..sleep the whole night till morning! i'm suppose to be studying! if not studying at least awake playing pc..not wasting my time closing my eyes lying at the bed doing nothing. gosh! i'm so lazy! haih~ and plus nowadays sharon is going through quite some hard times. and i know she will never tell me about it. both of us just can't talk. she won't tell me her problem and i won't tell her mine either. so rarely hang out with the gang adi. left out a lot of things. even if i join them. i don't have that kind of 'feel' to talk to them. haih! what was i thinking..maybe i just can't click with ppl with my looks..or should say my personality? weird case i know. especially the without smile face. gosh! must i smile 24/7?! haih!!!!! now i think going back pj to study isn't a bad thing after all.. at least i can start another new life!! how come ppl can start a new life easily and i can't!! another hint from god i think. the phone hanger that my friend gave me putus adi..means? get over it dude! omg! how many things do i have to get over?! i'm tired..really tired..even doing my tutorials and practical isn't this tired..nway..so tired until..i died in maple =_= my exp!! haihz!

This Week Blog

its been quite sometime since i updated my blog..lolz! what was i doing?! I should have keep track of my life! If not life would be just like water that flow to the sea and its hard to remember which part of the sea the memory is stored..what am i crapping anyway. Haih~

I try to recall what i've been doing for the pass few days, during this week. YMCA Ipoh for anniversary for Hope church? super cool and fun. Really enjoyed my day there. The Pastor is super good guy~! ok lar..he is handsome( my taste of the word handsome isn't very accurate) and he can sing very very well! i heard they say he once get request to be a singer by one of the music industry to publish music record. But he din't accept and become a full time pastor. Bless him. Singing, exercising(more like Pendidikan Jasmani class) dancing. The games was very interesting. Super nice. Although i'm not in the same group with flower ='( hahaz. we had lunch after all the activities. its free! but i only ate 1 plate. cuz was talking to Bee Kim about 'something personal'.. can't reveal. but almost cried cuz i was confused and can't make up my mind when Bee Kim consoled me. Haih! Nway, after all these fun knowing other ppl from other places who also attended , its Shopping time!! We went for bowling!! yay! me, Kin Hwa, Calvin and Ricky..Ricky..haih! almost all also get 9 pins down! geng leh he!! me and Calvin get 1 strike..Kin Hwa also not bad lor..just get out of luck..hahaz..If not he can surely beat Ricky ler..Maybe cuz Ricky have all the luck of the day..hahazXD After bowling we went shooping lor. Bump into counter guy. Then we Shop cloths for Flower~ Formal cloths. Hahaz. try out a lot of them, but at the end din't buy. hahaz..Suang XD

to be continue...i tired d.wan sleep..hahazXD

aiks..i'm back to continue..but super lazy to continue..aiks aiks! but i just get off skype with my dad.. its been 3 weeks since we actually chat online again. gosh. every single time he will make cry. i miss my home~ i really miss my family~ dad say ''whats there to be scared? you're not staying alone and you have friends over there.you don't have to stay alone in the whole apartment like me.'' i sob even worst and wanted to just yell at him '' i am terribly lonely!! i am alone! i wanna go home!''

-the end-

Dinner with CF

Today is the 1st time i join Calvin cell group members for dinner. Heard that he said that there is chinese christian fellowship at new town. So they plan the rest go for a dinner together. He asked Sharon to go and she said that she will ask me whether i wanna join along or not. Well, i did join along. but without Sharon. She fell sick, having flu caused by the rainy day yesterday. But after some sleep she does look quite fine.. Haih.. i know that she doesn't wanna go for dinner with them. maybe the reason is she have to spend money on food or maybe she just doesn't want to go dinner but wanted to go to pasar malam with her bf.. aiks.

So we went to somewhere far far away. A place where there is not much street lights-dark. A lil lost on the way to the shop,but finally we manange to reach the place too. Ohyar, we go by car ^^ 2 on motobikes follow behind. The curry mee is superb! cheap and delicious~ yumyum~ i wish i can go there again. i know a few new friends. There is 7 of us. I din't get the name of the guy that drive the car. but the others in the car was Anthony, Calvin, and Tiffany. and those two on the motobikes are Eric and one more i dono whats his name. hahazXD We all have curry mee, and after meal, JOKE TIME! we crap a lot. i don't have much to say cuz i really don't know anyone else than Calvin. so just laugh along a bit lor. Worrying of Sharon at the same time. aiks. They are all very friendly, especially Eric. Thanks Eric! hehe^^ I really want to eat the curry mee again er~ I got bungkus back for Sharon. but she doesn't seems to want it..haih! whatever lar! Thanks ya Calvin's friends. Thanks!! i really do enjoy this gathering dinner~ ^^

林俊杰－ 我还想她

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过
自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白奔不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过
自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱
我不痛
我不懂
我的心早已经掏空
真心话言不由衷
请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚想
终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

3rd day of Sem 2

Well well, so fast its already the third day of sem 2. I received the keys delivered from Kl yesterday. so I cycle to school today. lolz..3 weeks of sem break without cyclying makes me not used to cycle now. hahaz. Cycle a while already feeling tired. lolz. when i cycle back home its like i just took my bath, sweat like hell! Classes for today are quite interesting i guess. but i'm looking forward for tomorrow class-Web Page Design! hahaz. Today cycle under the rain 2 times just to go to pasar malam.hahaz. tau fu fa~ i miss it a lot. (KL one nicer ><) hahaz Friday i don have class! Hoorey! Downloading counter strike. Going to try it out this friday, hope its fun lar! althought its kindna violent killing ppl. hahaz! XD

2nd day of Sem 2

2nd day of the sem! class starts at 8 in the morning. Damn tired. Even Mr.Abel's mass comm class i also wanna sleep adi. Super hungry during class. Next class fundamental of marketing, Lolz she teach VERY slow.i admit that the notes does look enough. the only thing is its a lil complicated. Overall i only understand % of what she is teaching. LOLZ tough subject.

Today i Skype with dad. Told him lots of thing about whats is happening in my daily life. Get advise and some compliments from him. But after half an hour of chat, he ask me to offline. Gosh. he don't let me online more than half an hour on weekdays! how cruel! aiks..get so much lecturing on this topic over and over again. A part of me had already understand the responsiblity of study hard. but i do want some freedom sometimes? just to relax myself..aiks...SOBZ >.<

The start of SEM2

1st day of sem2! well.. to mention it, i leave my house key, room key, bike key, and cupboard key in KL. Forgotten to bring it along. hahaz XD So the 1st day of sem 2 i have to take the bus to school. Due to 1st week of the sem there are no tutorial class, so I will be going to school for 'Management Studies' at 2-4pm. The whole morning was like..seeing comic, listen song, eat and walking round and round in my room for nothing. about 11.30am, i started getting myself ready to go to school. Pack my bag, fill my bottle, bath, ok.the hardest part---getting myself dress up. gosh..i have limited cloths to wear. Most of the cloths are in the cupboard that are looked up. Well, i still manage to get myself dress up and leave to my another friends house to lepak for a while. Then, there is a bus at the turn of leaving westlake. LOLZ i ran towards the bus, cuz i don't wanna miss the bus and wait for another one. One word-exicted. reached school and went to Blok A to get my resuly slip and then off i go to my destination-Blok D. Meet 2 of my classroom at 1st..that was only 1.30pm. Half and hour before the class started. Well, lucky me to have someone there to accompany while waiting for entering the DDK2. As time passes, more students are gathered there. Meet back all our class students. Most of them have their hair cut. Some thinner, some plummer, some even prettier! every has change..but TB2 spirit will never change! lol. Lecture class was ok. 1 hour already finish adi, so went back home. Kindna like wasted? pay 2 bus tickets just to go to school for 1 HOUR! godness. nway, after that i came home and watch 'The hourney to the center of the earth' together with sharon to pass time. after that i went for dinner and peal garlic skin and now typing this blog with still having the scence of the garlic on my finger.EW! k..thats all for today..wow, i really can write a lot. hahaz. Thanks everyone for being my friend! Thanks~<3

Welcome to MYALIASLIFE~

hihi^^welcome to my blog~ Din't expect anyone to read my blog, but its just a warmth welcome ya~ well, actually i see all my friends having new blogs..so i planned to open one myself too.. but i guess the main reason i create this blog is to write down about my life? A way to express my miserable and joyful life. Kays, lets begins from why i am able to blog now,my desktop. I brought a new desktop XD cool huh? Its really slim and nice. 20inch screen, slim cpu, with graphic cards, speakers. Thats all i need to make my life more useful? hahaz. At least not so bored. And not to forget having internet acess here. Super cool-can online 24/7. Hmm.. but i think i won't be so stupid let it on for so long, cuz its a NEW desktop leh. Won't want it to burn out fast rite? hahaz. 2 more days to go till second semester starts. Hoping to have an happier life here. A life without my family and living here its kindna a big deal to me. Will always miss them~ but now maybe won't miss them so often, because i can skype home very often. hahaz. bless me~ Not much to say on the 1st day i guess. so, i'll just wanna wish all my friends. ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE~ May your love ones be with you always. Nomatter physically or mentally. Love ya!!! <3